One Word

It's not giving up.

That's the most important part.

I almost came to that point a few weeks ago. I decided then and there that I'm stronger than that. I refuse to be that weak.

So, this is not giving up.

It IS giving away.

Giving in.

Letting go.

It is both an admission of weakness, and a display of strength.

It's the word whispered to me through trials and struggles, through pain and pride, through everything I thought I was, and everything it turns out I am.

Relinquish.

This is my word for 2014 as I deal with all the trials and struggles, the pain, and the promise. I'm letting it all go, relinquishing my pride, my control, my pains, my fears, my life, surrendering it all, in favor of a higher plan, and a higher calling. And let me tell you something.

It's terrifying.

This is a big deal. A scary, difficult, unbelievable work of pure crazy. And you know what? I'm ready for that. I'm ready to let it all go, and not have to be in control for a while. God has this all worked out, and I'm coming to terms with the idea that, maybe, I never had control in the first place. So, I spending this year focused on a word and a verse. Relinquish. Psalm 55:22. "Give your burdens to the LORD and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall." (NLT)

"Good morning, my beloved

I have plans for you today

If you will let me calm your heart

I'll come and carry you away

You will be fearless in the morning,

And silent in the night

And angels come to guide you to the light

Good morning, my beloved

Know my eye has been on you

Cling to all my promises

And know that they are true

The time has come for your becoming

And though the change brings pain

Know that this will bring eternal gain

For it's my hands that mold the clay

And my voice that starts the day

It's my breath that brings new life

Through my perfect sacrifice

It's my words that tell the story

That will bring you to my glory

So, though the way is dark,

It leads to home.

Be still and know,

It's my hands that mold the clay."

-mold the clay, 12/23/13

~Happy Hippie Herbivore